Working on Personal and Spiritual Growth

For months, I have sat back and observed myself struggling with my faith and in what direction it is supposed to be leading me. It began when I found out that Jesus, whom I have learned to love, idolize and assumeD to be God, was merely the re-creation of Horus, son of Isis and Osirus. I have been told repeatedly that it should not affect my view of God but I can’t wrap my head around it yet. I BELIEVE that God is still God and that, being my Creator, is the only one to be worshiped, but let’s face it, like so many raised in the church, I learned to worship Jesus. It’d be so much easier had I been raised with virtually no background and were, more or less, a blank slate!

For decades, I’ve been taught that Jesus was equal with God and was, in fact, God himself. How’s that work? Are you and YOUR father the same person? How can Jesus (if indeed he even existed) be both God’s “only begotten” AND “equal”? Did God come up with this first and then change and fashion his creation inTO a completely different manner than he, himself, came from? Are you both your father’s “begotten” and simultaneously “equal” with him or do you have to grow a bit and work on catching up to your father? 

Here’s why the Osirus/Isis/Horus issue makes sense to me: because it is relatable. Because Isis literally went to the ends of the earth to find her mate and caused a love child to be created between them even AFTER his death (seems to be a very very ancient precursor of artifical insemination, don’t you think?) Who doesn’t like a good romance??!There are enough questions that arise (for me, anyway) in proportion to the how’s/why’s and wherefore’s in relation to this whole issue for it to bear more thorough research to be a necessity. The subject of God as taught by Christians is neatly wrapped up and contained in a predicatable, neat little package complete with Jesus as the bow. There are few questions aside from which new rule and regulation we can throw before our fellow believers cleverly wrapped up in the pursuit of conversion, i.e. The Great Commission. The vast majority of Chrstians are completely ignorant of the fact that we do this, so entrenched in habit has it become. 

And to those who are Christians, I am not disregarding what you believe; if it’s what keeps you grounded and acting right, keep at it, just don’t be disrespectful towards what I’m saying if you percieve that my actions and behaviour and spirit are right in line with what God stands for. Despite my belief that the book known to millions is full of stories being passed off as history rather than metaphore, I don’t discount everything in it, either. Just being PEOPLE tells us how to live in relative harmony with those around us. Being kind to your neighbor, or to strangers when you could choose to react a different way, are both Biblical and PRACTICALprincipals to live by and can lead to very positive relationships. The point is that these attitude norms are for us as people, not per race, per difference but extends to the core of us, not just relearned behavior.

I know that I am in for a long struggle till I’m at a place in my life where disbelief is no longer an issue and acceptance – towards God, myself and my past – is how I wake up every day seeing and living. Right now, life is a series of opportunities, good and bad, and reprucussions (equally good and bad). One day after another until the end of your life. Probably 90% of the world is unaware of this because life for humans is like an ant farm: we get up, do what we do, see who we see, all without realizing WHY we’re doing it all. Is it just surface selfishness or is there a deeper reason for our behavior and choices? A few of us are critically aware that our choices and behaviors are part of a puzzle that is “Who am I”, a question I believe controls the entirety of our  lives. I want to be active in my life. Although forces and factors outside of my life control the direction it takes, I want to be as involved as I can be. Having been created with the ability to speak and write, I have a certain amount of responsibility to use it as much as I can. 

I no longer remember my original reason for writing this blog. I had edibles and I am tore up from the floor up, and am having a damn near AWESOME experiment. My thoughts are a jumbled mass of snippits vibing for control for use and domination. Wow, this is great! I doubt many read this. People are lazy and don’t want to invest so much of their time into spending the time to read when there are so many other ways. But if you do, I thank you so much for taking the time. Time and money are two things we never seem to have enough of. 

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Working on Personal and Spiritual Growth

What say you?

If you knew your child’s every breath was up to you to protect, would you change the way you parent? If you knew every word out of your mouth is stored in your child’s head, fusing with their ever-expanding vocabulary and self consciousness, would you change your parenting style? If you recognized your propensity for favoring one child over the other(s), would you change your parenting stye or keep making excuses? As I sit here by my son’s memorial cross, marking the spot where he was hit and killed and where I often go to sit and talk to him, I think about these things. The questions I ask are not multiple choice, they are rhetorical.

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I have all kinds of extra time to come up with pearls of wisdom these days lol. I have learned through my kids going into and through foster care and through death. Our children have never been in more danger than they are today. I wish I could do more to help others but my hands are full right now. I know that God will open the doors as I need to go through them. Nothing that happens in our lives is for no reason. We go through stuff so that we can help others who’ve gone through similar stuff. We’re all students of our own lives; some are cognizant of that, some are not. Both are needed in this world. Proverbs 22:6 says Train up a child in the way they should go and when they’re OLD they will not depart from it…The laws of the land are only as good as the people who live according to them and even then, we have the responsibility to decide whether those laws protect or hurt our kids in the long run (abortion is federally legal, cannabis is federally illegal but abortion kills children while cannabis can heal not only our kids but the earth they will inherit once we’re gone and they’re left to take care of what’s left of it). 

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What say you?

Stop Building Bigger Barns; Re-learn to Share

A couple of days ago, my husband and i were at the doctor’s office. We were waiting for our ride back to our appointment, and were having a conversation about the economic gap between rich and poor, a very common conversation for us. What differentiated this conversation was an “aha” moment. As we talked, I mentioned how these mega churches were busy “building bigger barns” and that’s when my “aha” moment happened.

If you don’t recall the parable Jesus told, I will put it here for you all to read:

Luke 12

16 And he spake a parable unto them, saying, The ground of a certain rich man brought forth plentifully:

Luke Chapter 12: The Rich Man's Folly

The Rich Man’s Folly
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17 And he thought within himself, saying, What shall I do, because I have no room where to bestow my fruits?

18 And he said, This will I do: I will pull down my barns, and build greater; and there will I bestow all my fruits and my goods.

19 And I will say to my soul, Soul, thou hast much goods laid up for many years; take thine ease, eat, drink, and be merry.

20 But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided?

21 So is he that layeth up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God.

22 And he said unto his disciples, Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on.

23 The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment.

24 Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?

25 And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit?

26 If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least, why take ye thought for the rest?

27 Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

28 If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?

29 And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.

30 For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things.

31 But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.

32 Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.

33 Sell that ye have, and give alms; provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth.

34 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

35 Let your loins be girded about, and your lights burning;

36 And ye yourselves like unto men that wait for their lord, when he will return from the wedding; that when he cometh and knocketh, they may open unto him immediately.

37 Blessed are those servants, whom the lord when he cometh shall find watching: verily I say unto you, that he shall gird himself, and make them to sit down to meat, and will come forth and serve them.

38 And if he shall come in the second watch, or come in the third watch, and find them so, blessed are those servants.

39 And this know, that if the goodman of the house had known what hour the thief would come, he would have watched, and not have suffered his house to be broken through.

40 Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.

It has long bothered me that we have mega churches with so much poverty in this country. Yes, the poverty is everywhere but I live in the United States, so for the purposes of this blog, I will keep it “in my own backyard”. I believe it is encumbant upon the church to alleviate as much suffering as possible. It is dishonoring to God to hoarde what he has given and I pray that conviction will descend on these churches that are defying him to his face.

For those who ask, who are you? I say this, I am a watcher. I have no money, no fame, no fortune to my name. What I do have is a profound love for my God and my fellow man. Though imperfect, I am willing to do what I have to, to further the kingdom of God and am stepping out in boldness and faith. It takes a lot of courage to do anyting these days, to take a stand. All around us, people are opposed to any stand you take, if said stand goes against the word of God, whether one believes in it word verbatim or in it as a roadmap through life (they’ are not mutually exclusive) and makes you politically incorrect.

Taking care of our fellow man is not a matter of the law or the government, at least it shouldn’t be; it’s a matter of right and wrong, not an issue to be shoved off into the hands of people who don’t care one way or another. Because of the nature of our political landscape, it’s become a very cold world, and many, many people are dying and suffering who could be helped. There’s a huge discrepency between rich and poor. There are the 1%ers, as they say- those who own the majority of the money, the influence, and the property. Then there are the 99%ers – those who struggle to get by, pay for the lifestyle of the rich and famous (by going to see their movies, listen and buy their music, sport, etc.; and buy the products advertised, whether we need them or not), and, sadly, this is no different in the church than anywhere else.

To put things into perspective, let me show you what I mean:

Here’s a list of mega churches in this country and their numbers:

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None of this would not be a problem were it not for two primary issues that arise out of it. The first issue that arises is the discrepency between the rich and the poor. How can a preacher or pastor stand up and talk about God providing for us all when they’re hoarding the wealth, not paying taxes (as commanded by God – Render unto Caesar what belongs to Caesar…Mark 12:17) and so far removed from their people that they could probably have the same member for 20 years and never even realized that person exists past their initial joining. The second issue that arises is the impact that the mega church has on the world in general, which is already looking for reasons to dismiss God out-of-hand. Add a mega church into the mix with its cold, calculating, materialistic nature and who wants to join the family of God and what for when the options are 1) they don’t know you 2) they don’t care about you and 3) you’re only as valuable as the amount of money you sink into their organization (and if you don’t have any, they likely don’t know you even exist and so have no time for you at all). None of these reasons are representative of the God who’s supposed to care about us personally.

Don’t misunderstand me: I have no problem with people making money. I have no problem with wealth. If there wasn’t such a huge inconsistancy between rich and poor, I would say, do your thing but that’s not the case.

Consider this:

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Can a church claim to be fiscally responsible and preach about money to people when there is this level of poverty? Can they say that the level has nothing to do with them and that they should be able to accumulate all the wealth they want to when we’re supposed to be loving God and our neighbor as ourself?

As the body of Christ, we need to return to the basics. We are all, individually and collectively, responsible for each other. We’ve lost sight of this fact and we’ve drifted so far away from it for so long that we no longer regard our neighbor as our neighbor, but rather another person whom we decide whether or not we want to associate with depending on whether we “approve” or “disapprove” of their thoughts, lifestyle, or behavior. The fact that we’re family seems to have been forgotten.

So, what do I want to come about as a result of this post? In my mind, this is what I want: I want the church to either start paying taxes or to take the taxes that they WOULD be paying to invest in alleviating the homeless problem. There are a lot of creative people in this country – put your creativity into action. Stop hoarding and share. The only reason I wish I had resources would be to share. That’s it. You can’t take your wealth with you and when you go, you leave a lot of resources behind that could go to care for others.

I doubt anything will change although I stubbornly retain hope. I have faith in God; very little in man. My job is to be obedient to the urging of my Spirit, which I have done. What happens from hereon out rests with God. I learned a long time ago that sales, of any kind, is not my strength. Fortunately for me, God is alot bigger than I am and the Spirit is not bound by time and distance.

Remember, no man is an island. Share with your fellow man  and remember that if the shoe were on the other foot, you’d want others to share with you!

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Stop Building Bigger Barns; Re-learn to Share

Cannabis for Everyone

WP_20141020_13_36_57_Pro I can’t say this any plainer: cannabis needs to be rescheduled and reclassified from the top down. That means the White House down to the states down to the cities with uniformity all around.

545768_2970283702710_347753740_nI have been on a crusade for a decade to legalize. At the beginning, I confess, it was only because my husband had introduced me to this amazing plant and through usage of it, I learned the health (and psychological) benefits of it.

bullyCapitalism is a two headed dragon. On one hand, we can make money if we know the right people and have a head for numbers (i.e.fiscal genius). On the other hand, for those who have neither, we’re pretty much screwed. I didn’t set up the system and I think the system sucks. People should be on an even plain, especially when they’re willing to work for their food and shelter (the only true necessities we have). There’s nothing inherently wrong with making a profit, until making the profit becomes the end goal and one’s fellow man is left bleeding in the moonlight with his “friends” stepping over and on top of him as he lays there.

The Burning BushCannabis is a gift of God the Creator. Some believe in Him, others don’t, but that’s irrelevant. It’s a wonderful plant with a shitload of benefits. Benefits to cure cancer, benefits to help children, benefits to help thousands of diseases and ailments, including the soldiers we have returning from war with PTSD and missing and broken limbs – at a fraction of the cost of other medications where it costs $.50 a pill while they charge patients $500 a bottle. What kind of bullshit is this and why the hell is it allowed and no one says shit? No one wants to take a stance. No one want to be that person that others look at and call “Socialist” and all kinds of other names that people come up with to coerce someone into hanging out with the “popular kids”. Names that they call President Obama, the only person since Jimmy Carter trying to do any thing for us little people and they bastardize him for it! We talk out both sides of our mouths, of course, because all the time we’re trying to be all independent, we’re simultaneously trying to be like the others around us (Keeping up with the Joneses).

Loving TouchSometimes I feel like the only person on earth who gives a crap about things other than what people wear, or makeup or advancing “women’s rights” and all the other b.s. that makes up politics today is me and my husband. There may be one or two others that I know that care about other people (and caring about other people is the only reality that matters) but they are getting to be fewer and fewer.

world-peace-debi-hammondCannabis can hypothetically bring the world to peace. Although I don’t believe that there will ever be world peace in the sense that is commonly known (people are selfish by nature and must learn otherwise), I do believe that the cannabis lovers of the world can be at peace with one another if they stop trying to bully others into compliance just to further their agenda. People should be able to go to work, do their jobs and then go home and smoke their flipping brains out if they want to. They should be able to do so with he blessing of their primary care provider. They should be able to ingest it, put it in a bong, cook it in food. It’s an herb, people. They should be able to grow it at home or go to the store and get it without extortionary prices instead of hiding behind children (oh, but they’ll turn a blind eye to them huffing paint and glue with that It’s so dangerous for the kids rhetoric).

545768_2970283702710_347753740_nLegalize cannabis. Make our spokespeople listen to us. Remember that  the House & Senate are there, as well as the President and all elected officials of each city, state and county are there for US not the other way around. If you want something, fight for it! Of course, the only way for that to happen is for everyone to get in the same boat, on the same page; without that happening, not a damn thing will change.

Thank you for giving me a chance to stand on my soap box for a minute. soapbox (1)

To sign the “Full Legalization of Marijuana in the United States of America petition, click the link below:

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/full-legalization-marijuana-united-states-america/4J1C5skR

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/full-legalization-marijuana-united-states-america/4J1C5skR

Cannabis for Everyone

Let’s Rethink Cannabis

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I don’t believe it’s of any surprise that I’m in favor of legalization. My nickname is  Holy Hempress so if no one caught it, they’re really not paying attention. Surely the pictures of CANNABIS were a give-a-way?  Ha, Ha!

 

 

 

 

 

 

WinkIncidentally, I’m not only a FAN of cannabis, I believe it to be my GOD-GIVEN right to smoke it, eat it, turn it into hash oil and/or use it as holy oil and as a direct link, it’s my RESPONSIBILITY to teach and reeducate people who have grown up listening to the rhetoric that has followed it for years.  And no one can tell me different.

 

 

 

 

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God put this plant on earth and it has medicinal purpose just as cocoa leaves, opium and all other things on this earth do. Unfortunately, “man” is an arrogant, egotistical so-and-so and is FOREVER doing stuff to mess up the wonderful things God has given to us for our use (adding man made products to create heroin and crack, for example). 

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This morning I came across this petition on Facebook. It should be noted that I am one of those people who’ll cross the street to avoid a confrontation or possible conflict but sometimes one has to roll up their proverbial sleeves and be willing to be counted- even if it has negative results. Hopefully that’s not the case with this one. The petition I am talking about was to order Eric Holder  to order a scientific and medical evaluation on cannabis.

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/order-attorney-general-eric-holder-request-scientific-and-medical-evaluation-marijuana-dhhs/J5XK2gL3

** I would be monumentally grateful if everyone who reads this would consider going to the page and signing this petition.**

 

Screen-Shot-2014-04-02-at-11.45.59-AM-750x668It’s abundantly clear that the majority of American citizens want cannabis legalized. For medical purposes or recreationally, it’s the same thing. Cannabis is medical by definition (as I’ve said in other blogs). The lack of legalization has nothing to do with our safety – or even our children. They’re spending the afternoon at school being bullied, bullying others, seducing and being seduced by other kids and grown teachers, huffing paint and other products. Marijuana should be the least of their concerns- in fact, if they had it, maybe they’d come home and park it for a change instead of going out making stupid decisions with far reaching consequences.

 

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I truly hope that this blog reaches someone and causes them to think. We’re used to being monitored and accept whatever is directed towards us as Gospel. I don’t think that’s particularly healthy. One of the reasons that the P.T.B.’s do NOT want cannabis legal is because cannabis causes us to think and question. If they can keep us in Matrix format, we’re easy to control; if we take the RED pill and pull out of that mentality and realize we’re so much more bigger and smarter and full of possibility than we ever dreamed possible, and that no one can stop us if we set our minds to it, we would be dangerous indeed! We might even change the world for the better!! So let’s smoke a bowl and change the world!!

 

AS ALWAYS…LEGALIZE. REEDUCATE. RECLASSIFY.

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Saying HIGH, Person to Person :-D

Hello, everyone!! I wanted to introduce myself (properly) to you all, person to person, so to speak. The little guy is Ishaq, my five-year-old son. He’s amazing but five…and amazing and…FIVE! ROFL Darling, isn’t he?

PPP and spread the news: cannabis is essential, it is wonderful and it is going to pull the United States out of debt and step the rising tide of violence if enough people will lift their voices and stop acting like “sheeple”. The Creator gave us ALL brain matter and it’s far past time to start using it and exercising our rights as Unites States of America.

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