Working on Personal and Spiritual Growth

For months, I have sat back and observed myself struggling with my faith and in what direction it is supposed to be leading me. It began when I found out that Jesus, whom I have learned to love, idolize and assumeD to be God, was merely the re-creation of Horus, son of Isis and Osirus. I have been told repeatedly that it should not affect my view of God but I can’t wrap my head around it yet. I BELIEVE that God is still God and that, being my Creator, is the only one to be worshiped, but let’s face it, like so many raised in the church, I learned to worship Jesus. It’d be so much easier had I been raised with virtually no background and were, more or less, a blank slate!

For decades, I’ve been taught that Jesus was equal with God and was, in fact, God himself. How’s that work? Are you and YOUR father the same person? How can Jesus (if indeed he even existed) be both God’s “only begotten” AND “equal”? Did God come up with this first and then change and fashion his creation inTO a completely different manner than he, himself, came from? Are you both your father’s “begotten” and simultaneously “equal” with him or do you have to grow a bit and work on catching up to your father? 

Here’s why the Osirus/Isis/Horus issue makes sense to me: because it is relatable. Because Isis literally went to the ends of the earth to find her mate and caused a love child to be created between them even AFTER his death (seems to be a very very ancient precursor of artifical insemination, don’t you think?) Who doesn’t like a good romance??!There are enough questions that arise (for me, anyway) in proportion to the how’s/why’s and wherefore’s in relation to this whole issue for it to bear more thorough research to be a necessity. The subject of God as taught by Christians is neatly wrapped up and contained in a predicatable, neat little package complete with Jesus as the bow. There are few questions aside from which new rule and regulation we can throw before our fellow believers cleverly wrapped up in the pursuit of conversion, i.e. The Great Commission. The vast majority of Chrstians are completely ignorant of the fact that we do this, so entrenched in habit has it become. 

And to those who are Christians, I am not disregarding what you believe; if it’s what keeps you grounded and acting right, keep at it, just don’t be disrespectful towards what I’m saying if you percieve that my actions and behaviour and spirit are right in line with what God stands for. Despite my belief that the book known to millions is full of stories being passed off as history rather than metaphore, I don’t discount everything in it, either. Just being PEOPLE tells us how to live in relative harmony with those around us. Being kind to your neighbor, or to strangers when you could choose to react a different way, are both Biblical and PRACTICALprincipals to live by and can lead to very positive relationships. The point is that these attitude norms are for us as people, not per race, per difference but extends to the core of us, not just relearned behavior.

I know that I am in for a long struggle till I’m at a place in my life where disbelief is no longer an issue and acceptance – towards God, myself and my past – is how I wake up every day seeing and living. Right now, life is a series of opportunities, good and bad, and reprucussions (equally good and bad). One day after another until the end of your life. Probably 90% of the world is unaware of this because life for humans is like an ant farm: we get up, do what we do, see who we see, all without realizing WHY we’re doing it all. Is it just surface selfishness or is there a deeper reason for our behavior and choices? A few of us are critically aware that our choices and behaviors are part of a puzzle that is “Who am I”, a question I believe controls the entirety of our  lives. I want to be active in my life. Although forces and factors outside of my life control the direction it takes, I want to be as involved as I can be. Having been created with the ability to speak and write, I have a certain amount of responsibility to use it as much as I can. 

I no longer remember my original reason for writing this blog. I had edibles and I am tore up from the floor up, and am having a damn near AWESOME experiment. My thoughts are a jumbled mass of snippits vibing for control for use and domination. Wow, this is great! I doubt many read this. People are lazy and don’t want to invest so much of their time into spending the time to read when there are so many other ways. But if you do, I thank you so much for taking the time. Time and money are two things we never seem to have enough of. 

Working on Personal and Spiritual Growth

Sativa Cannabis Strains to Off-set Addiction to Cocaine and Amphetamines

Also aids with Ecstasy, Molly and Crystal Meth

          STRAIN            EFFECT        COMPANY     PICTURE
                                                 SATIVA
White Russian Alert, Clear, Trippy Serious  White Russian 2
AK-47 Mellow, Cerebral, Spacey Serious  AK 47
AK-48 Cerebral Nirvana  AK 48
Arjan Haze # 1 Uplifting, Social Green House  Arjan Haze 1
Arjan  Haze #3 Creative Euphoric, Active Green House  Arjan 3 (2)
Arjan Ultra Haze #1 Meditative, Introspective Green House  arjans-ultra-haze-1
Arjan Ultra Haze #2 Giggly, Chatty, Social Green House  Ultra Haze #2
Strawberry Haze Creativity, Giggly Arjan  ArjansStrawberryHaze
Amnesia Haze Euphoric Soma’s Seeds  Amnesia Haze
Cannalope Haze Strong, Heady DNA  Cannalope Haze
Super Lemon Haze Uplifting, Creative Arjan  Super Lemon Haze
Dela Haze Uplifting, Active Paradise  delahaze 2
Dutch Haze Clear, Uplifting, Calming Dutch Passion  dutch haze
Hawaiian Haze Cerebral, Euphoric, Clear Arjan  1033515593Hawaiian-Haze
Nevil’s  Haze Strong, Cerebral, Psychedelic Federation  Nevil's Haze
Sage Cerebral, Alert T. H. Seeds  sage
Kali Mist Cerebral, Energetic Serious Seeds  Kali Mist
Cinderella 99 Uplifting, Giggly, Mental Gypsy Nirvana  Cinderella 99
Jack Herer Uplifting, Cerebral Green House  jack herer
Sour Diesel Up, Euphoric, Psychedelic Green House  sour diesel
New York City Diesel Up, Creative, Cerebral Soma Seeds  NYC diesel
Jack the Ripper Speedy, Trippy, Talkative T.G.A. Seeds  jack the ripper
Chocolope Euphoric D.N.A. Genetics  Cannalope Haze
                                     African Sativas and  Hybrids  
Ethiopian Highland Up, Creative African Seeds  ethiopian highland
Swazi Skunk Cerebral, Alert, Energetic African Seeds  swazi skunk
Malawi Gold Alert, Clear, Psychoactive African Seeds  malawi gold
Durban Poison Cerebral, Creative,Focused Dutch Passion  durban poison
Urban Poison Cheerful, Alert, Energetic Nirvana  urban-poison-1
Power Plant Strong, Uplifting, Giggly Dutch Passion

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Swazi Safari Cerebral, Clear, Euphoric Flying Dutchmen  swazi safari

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Raphael “Herb’n Monk” Hameed and his Sour Grape grow in Los Angeles 2010

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Sativa Cannabis Strains to Off-set Addiction to Cocaine and Amphetamines

Come to Peace Now; Fewer Regrets Later

ap_ap-photo1501-640x436 We are in the last days. I’m fully convinced of that.  Anyone paying attention to the goings-on here in the United States as well as the rest of the world will likely consede that things are declining quickly. Earthquakes, volcanoes, rioting and looting because of the still-relevant racial issues going on all over the country (likely the world but trying to keep this in “my own backyard”) are once more coming to a head.

sn401c_sg_0010b Whether things end like they’re described in the Bible or another way, the decline of society and civilization (or should I say UNcivilization) has progressed to a place where it would take a miracle to return to normal, assuming “normal” was ever anything other than a term used to keep people in their place.

riot42 This is not to say that I believe in anarchy because I certainly don’t. On the contrary, I would rather we sat down and held actual communication over a giant bowl of good herb. tumblr_inline_mlbqz7nWWu1qz4rgp

stock-photo-muslim-protest-and-protestors-with-picket-signs-1041110  I believe the government has no right to tell me what to do when that law violates what I believe to be the law of God, or at the very least, the BLESSING of God. WP_20150312_027 These days, that line has been monumentally blurred, maybe even obliterated, because the God that I believe in is apparently a different God than much of the world believes in, if they believe in one at all. Does this make me better than them? Hell no, of course not! It just makes me who I am and life experiences have helped shape me into the person I am.

right-way-wrong-way1 Nowadays, morality is what man says it is; what society dictates – God’s definition, to most people, is completely moot because man’s desire to have their own way supercedes what he wants and says and even more, no one is qualified to speak for a God who’s been around since the beginning, I don’t care what kind of degree some man hands you or how many hours you study. I’ve never studies Hebrew or Greek but I can tell you that I imagine that the more you study about God the LESS you know.

4219b439833fc71ca821413e836c6847 All of that is not true of myself – I’m well aware I am not God, nor do I want to be – and I have no problem with God telling me what to do because he’s been around forever and I have not. The most recent issue(s) today are the gay agenda and the race-related police killings leading to all kinds of anger and hatred. Both have been thrown into everything. Nothing is sacred or pure anymore, especially not love. What you do with your time and in your bedroom is your business but when you start messing with me and impeding on my right to believe and saying nasty crap to me, I will say something whether it’s taboo or not. Isn’t it funny how one-sided tolerance is? I’ve been tripping on that for quite some time now.

Hands on a globe --- Image by © Royalty-Free/Corbis As I stated earlier in another forum, I will add here, because it’s totally relevant to this blog: “There’s no hope left for America beyond the individuals who still love God and their fellow man. The best we can hope for anymore is to teach our children right from wrong, teach them to stand on their own two feet and treat their neighbors with respect and in the end, trust that we taught them enough.”

images Come to peace now. I am talking about inner peace; outter peace is temporary at best. If you come to peace now, you will have fewer regrets later because, in case you’ve missed it, bad things tend to accumulate (like a snowball going downhill) and you’re (and  I’m) going to need to be spiritually fortified in order to make it through. Choose your friends wisely- you’re going to need ALLIES in the days and months and possibly years to come.

God Speed. Go in Peace.

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Come to Peace Now; Fewer Regrets Later

It’s Simply Complicated

imagesThe further we progress in life, the more we divagate as people. Technologically, we keep progressing forward, we’re very good at doing these kinds of things. As people, for the most part, we’re abject failures. All too often, we can live next door to someone for decades with neither party being the wiser. A natural disaster, an apartment fire, or something equally negative is about the only thing that might happen, alerting you to the fact that you even HAVE neighbors, it seems like.

10553821_10152163098551256_8278471907802352853_oPersonally, I’m very much a people-person. My unrealistic side believes there’s hope for the devil; my practical side sees him as a necessary evil and my realistic side sees him as a major hindrance to spiritual growth. I appreciate technology and am grateful it exists (hence this blog Wink) but I ask myself whether or not I’d be able or ready to progress forward if it all crashed today, being brutally honest with myself. It’s a fair-and imperative-question to ask: who would thrive and be able to continue providing for their family if we had to return to the basics -and had no real, working concept of what that entails?

srvrWe have grown so used to watching shows like Survivor, Alaskan surviving programs and the like that we swear we’d know how to function but when the rubber meets the road, would we be really be able to make it post-apocolypse (so to speak)? I seriously doubt it, frankly. The predominant reason we would crash and burn is because we tend to forget these programs are at least mostly scripted whereas our involvement in a post apocolyptic would be entirely non-voluntary, not to mention a very rude awakening. For those of us who have lived pre-internet and remember when we used to walk and run and bend and stoop to do chores, we might have a chance but for this current and future generations, survival would be a very harsh reality.

images (1)We need to come back to where we could survive without technology. There are so many movies, television shows and documentaries surrounding this issue but to actually make it, we’d have to develop a little thing I call EXPERIENCE and that involves getting personally involved – with ourselves and with each other.

It’s Simply Complicated

Cannabis for Everyone

WP_20141020_13_36_57_Pro I can’t say this any plainer: cannabis needs to be rescheduled and reclassified from the top down. That means the White House down to the states down to the cities with uniformity all around.

545768_2970283702710_347753740_nI have been on a crusade for a decade to legalize. At the beginning, I confess, it was only because my husband had introduced me to this amazing plant and through usage of it, I learned the health (and psychological) benefits of it.

bullyCapitalism is a two headed dragon. On one hand, we can make money if we know the right people and have a head for numbers (i.e.fiscal genius). On the other hand, for those who have neither, we’re pretty much screwed. I didn’t set up the system and I think the system sucks. People should be on an even plain, especially when they’re willing to work for their food and shelter (the only true necessities we have). There’s nothing inherently wrong with making a profit, until making the profit becomes the end goal and one’s fellow man is left bleeding in the moonlight with his “friends” stepping over and on top of him as he lays there.

The Burning BushCannabis is a gift of God the Creator. Some believe in Him, others don’t, but that’s irrelevant. It’s a wonderful plant with a shitload of benefits. Benefits to cure cancer, benefits to help children, benefits to help thousands of diseases and ailments, including the soldiers we have returning from war with PTSD and missing and broken limbs – at a fraction of the cost of other medications where it costs $.50 a pill while they charge patients $500 a bottle. What kind of bullshit is this and why the hell is it allowed and no one says shit? No one wants to take a stance. No one want to be that person that others look at and call “Socialist” and all kinds of other names that people come up with to coerce someone into hanging out with the “popular kids”. Names that they call President Obama, the only person since Jimmy Carter trying to do any thing for us little people and they bastardize him for it! We talk out both sides of our mouths, of course, because all the time we’re trying to be all independent, we’re simultaneously trying to be like the others around us (Keeping up with the Joneses).

Loving TouchSometimes I feel like the only person on earth who gives a crap about things other than what people wear, or makeup or advancing “women’s rights” and all the other b.s. that makes up politics today is me and my husband. There may be one or two others that I know that care about other people (and caring about other people is the only reality that matters) but they are getting to be fewer and fewer.

world-peace-debi-hammondCannabis can hypothetically bring the world to peace. Although I don’t believe that there will ever be world peace in the sense that is commonly known (people are selfish by nature and must learn otherwise), I do believe that the cannabis lovers of the world can be at peace with one another if they stop trying to bully others into compliance just to further their agenda. People should be able to go to work, do their jobs and then go home and smoke their flipping brains out if they want to. They should be able to do so with he blessing of their primary care provider. They should be able to ingest it, put it in a bong, cook it in food. It’s an herb, people. They should be able to grow it at home or go to the store and get it without extortionary prices instead of hiding behind children (oh, but they’ll turn a blind eye to them huffing paint and glue with that It’s so dangerous for the kids rhetoric).

545768_2970283702710_347753740_nLegalize cannabis. Make our spokespeople listen to us. Remember that  the House & Senate are there, as well as the President and all elected officials of each city, state and county are there for US not the other way around. If you want something, fight for it! Of course, the only way for that to happen is for everyone to get in the same boat, on the same page; without that happening, not a damn thing will change.

Thank you for giving me a chance to stand on my soap box for a minute. soapbox (1)

To sign the “Full Legalization of Marijuana in the United States of America petition, click the link below:

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/full-legalization-marijuana-united-states-america/4J1C5skR

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Cannabis for Everyone

It’s “official” :-) PPP

All, right, if it wasn’t obvious before, let me stand up with millions of other people and say this…I’ve come out of the closet! I’m “officially” changing my name to Holy  Hempress (after all, I am married to the Herb’n Monk)!! Of course I’m still Mrs Hameed 😉 but  I’m also morphing into…something – where it ends, only my Creator knows! Should be an interesting journey!

I’ve been writing a long time. I love to write and I find it very therapeutic! There’s so much controversy concerning cannabis and the legalization of it – understandable, really, if you consider than anything the Creator made is hated or tainted by man. No doubt about it – man is a trip. Egotistical, arrogant, hard-headed. But there are people who are willing to learn; willing to obey even when it’s opposed to the flesh. I’m one of those people who are willing to learn – willing to hear what needs to hear, not so much because I’m such a great person but because I’ve learned over the years that part of it is genetic and part of it is training and maturity. As the Bible says, “When I was a man (woman), I put away childish things…” and as anyone who has children knows, Children want their own way; they want to fight against everything adults tell them to do (you ought to meet mines – you would understand if you don’t already).

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I will be more active here on WordPress, God willing. I am working on setting up a work-at-home experience since I need to work, I am in the business and love cannabis, having found it helps me very much.

May the Creator bless you and keep you. I welcome communication!

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It’s “official” :-) PPP